InsaneJournal

My heart is still beating though
I want to go on a date. I haven't been on an actual date in a pretty long time.
When will people realize that romance doesn't just happen?
A date is NOT...
Making out on your parent's couch.
Going to a party.
Hanging out with a group of friends.
Having sex in a public place.
Going somewhere together for a definite purpose (other than just being together)

You're supposed to...
Open doors
Say sweet things
Get to know one another
Be alone together (even in a crowd)
Have fun
Laugh and enjoy life
Enjoy the simple company of the other person


Teenage boys are so fucking stupid I can't stand it anymore. For once, can I just meet a sane guy with morals that likes me and that I like back? How hard would that be for the universe to arrange?

I don't want to be that girl that makes out with her best friend for kicks.
I want someone to look at me like I'm the only one in the room. I want someone to be sweet to me for the sake of being sweet to me and not just to look good or get into my pants.
I want someone to care about me. I want someone to tell me I mean more to them than the phone buzzing in their pocket or an invitation to a party. I want someone that will fall for me at the same rate I fall for them. I want someone that won't get weird and creepy a month in. I want someone willing to break stupid plans to be with me. I want someone that won't break stupid plans with me to do something else unimportant. I want someone that thinks I'm important. I want someone that I don't HAVE to be the strong one with. I want someone that will make me be a better person without knowing it. I want someone with dreams something along the same lines as mine. I want someone that understands my complicated life and is there when I need them but backs up when I ask. I want to feel butterflies. I want to make someone else feel butterflies. I want someone to want me. I want someone to love me. But what I want most is to feel that tingle in my chest when I tell them how I feel and they agree.


I'm just a silly teenage girl though.