InsaneJournal

Current mood:	hopeful
Current music:	Bush

It's been forever since I've updated.
I'm sitting here listening to Bush.
I don't really know what to say, but I figure once I start it'll just keep flowing (because it's been so long).
My mood swings are so absurd lately. It's not really a swing, that's the wrong word... Like, I wake up every day feeling fine, but within about 3 hours that can COMPLETELY change. I never wake up knowing what I'll feel like that day. It's probably because I've been having really nice dreams lately and then I have to come back to reality.
This coffee is really good. I just thought you should know lol.
I really should be getting dressed and doing my hair, but I don't feel like it.
Shit, I forgot to do laundry again. Ok, I just went and put it in.
Now I have to wait another hour and a half to be fully dressed and ready to leave the house (I have no clean bras).
I wish I had some reefer. Chanel has a fuckin eighter Anthony left in her glove box and she just keeps coming up with lame ass excuses not to bring it to me. It fuckin sucks. Anthony said that I can smoke some when I get it as long as there's at least half left for him when he gets home on Monday (what a swell guy lol).
Last night I finished off the shake I scraped out of my box. Hula hooped while I smoked it, that was interesting. Once I finally sat down, the high hit lmao.
Aaaah shit.
I just realized I'm going to have to clear out all of our booze bottles from the basement before mom gets home. We have a lovely collection of R&R bottles and 40s in the cupboard down there lol. I have a feeling mom's gonna be snooping around the whole house once she gets home though, to see what we've been up to. Damn.
I'm kind of excited for school just so I can take photo class. Other than that, I want Summer to last forever. This summer has been amazing. It's had it's ups and downs, but overall, it's been pretty up.
"I don't want to come back down from this cloud, it's taken me all this time to find out what I need."
Now I'm listening to Glycerine. I used to have trouble listening to it without thinking of Robert and wanting to cry. It's not a problem anymore. It still makes me think of him a little, but for the most part, it's just a good song. I still can't listen to One Trillion Dollars by Anti-Flag though...
I can't believe that whole situation is still so messy. It really sucks. I wish he'd just fucking talk to me about it. I'm the kind of person that needs actual closure, and that can't be reached without communication. He doesn't want to talk about it, he says he's already over it all and doesn't want to open healed wounds. I think he's lying. Once you're really over something, you can talk about it. I think I'm more over it than he is, he just won't admit it. I guess I'll just have to wait it out for the closure that comes with time... It'll take awhile, but I guess it'll have to work.

Shiiiit.
Something came up.
I'll finish late.